Postscript--Sic Transit Gloria Mundi

Linda and Kathryn Huxtable's Breakup, June 30, 1998
Written March 4, 1999

This may be my final note in this series. I think I don't need this outlet anymore. That doesn't mean I won't change my mind, but at this point I'm writing this as closure.

I've been living on my own for seven months. I'm thinking that with my lease up at the end of July, it may be time to start house hunting. We sold the house in December for a reasonable amount, of which I got half, so I have the wherewithal to make a nice down payment. And I think I'm together enough at this point to take care of a house. If not, I'll manage anyway. I want the extra space, and renting it is more expensive than buying it here.

I'm cooking a bit more. I have trouble cooking dinner for myself, but I'm cooking desserts for others. And I cook for myself on weekends more than I was. So gradually I recover and become able to function. I don't clean as often as I'd like, but it gets done. Taking care of the cats is the one thing I don't ever skimp on. They get fed on time and their litter boxes get cleaned on a regular schedule.

Linda is still seeing the same person. I'm not very happy when I see both of them, but I think I can deal with it. Our financial affairs are almost all divided now. That means that I don't have to see her very often, and I don't. Every several weeks is all, and that's almost too much. There are times when I feel like I don't want to see her ever again. (But we still haven't divided the photos.)

I'm feeling a lot more hostility now towards her than I was feeling right after the breakup. I don't like it, but I don't see a way around it. The only way out is through.

Basically, I think I'm fairly stable. I have better days and worse days, but they're mostly evening out. I have rages and I have misery, but they're farther apart. I doubt I'll feel the need to write here again.

--Kathryn Huxtable, March 4, 1999ce

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